Tag: I am not a grownup

Double Ha

I thought I was a pathetic excuse for an adult yesterday, but that was nothing compared to today. I did exactly none of the things I should have. So, y’know, why stop there?

Until tomorrow.



I realized that I have nine (9!) different kinds of ice cream in my house. I had this realization while eating my third ice cream bar of the day. I’m clearly a grown-up.

Other things I ate today: three Wawa pretzels and a large Wawa caramel cream smoothie (which was insanely delicious, by the by). That’s pretty much it. When you combine that with the two naps of unknown length I took this afternoon I am the grown-up-iest grown-up that ever lived.

In other news, today is the third anniversary of Roy Halladay’s perfect game. I am always going to regret not watching that game. I didn’t have MLB.tv back then, but I had FoxSports Florida, which broadcasts all Marlins games. Of course, I didn’t realize that at the time, but that’s no excuse. Judging by how nervous I got watching several plays on that video – even though I knew what was going to happen – I probably would’ve stressed myself the hell out if I’d watched that game live. Hell, I remember how nervous I was watching Doc’s no-hitter in the NLDS; to this day my heart races when I watch footage of the last out of that game.

Until tomorrow.

Wasting Time

I did the whole no alarm clock thing again last night. And this time I only slept eight hours, which is a step in the right direction, so yay 🙂 Granted, sleeping eight hours still means getting up at 10 because I seem to have made myself incapable of going to bed before 2 AM, but whatever. I got the “proper” amount of sleep last night. And it’s so much better to wake up sans alarm clock. So much better.

And here’s the really key part: I did some school stuff and everything. In fact, I did pretty much all the schoolwork that needs to be done between now and Sunday. Which is awesome.

I even had hours to kill before Game 1 of the World Series started (dammit, that was depressing). So I updated my resume and looked for job openings. I mean, I worked on cleaning off my dining table. Oh wait, no, sorry. Those are the things a responsible adult would do.

I sat on my couch and checked Twitter while listening to a podcast. It never even occurred to me to do something more active while listening. And therein lies (one of) my problem(s). It did occur to me that I could look for job openings, but that prospect freaked me out so I did nothing. And therein lies my (other) problem.

Remember a week ago when I said I wasn’t an adult? Yeah, this is more of that. I’m 32 years old and I have no idea how to be an adult. How awesome is that? Blah.

Until tomorrow.

Overwhelmed And Avoiding

For reasons that are not at all clear to me, I am feeling really overwhelmed by my classes right now. Or, perhaps more to the point, really overwhelmed by what I need to do for my classes.

So how am I dealing with these feelings? Am I plowing ahead because it’s got to be done?

Yeah, right.

I’ve been staying in bed until noon (or later) on a daily basis. Then I’ve been doing just about everything I could possibly do on my computer other than access USF’s BlackBoard pages. Most notably, I’ve spent hours rearranging things in iPhoto.

In other words, I’ve been actively avoiding it. I realized what I was doing days ago, but thus far I have been unable to stop my avoidance tactics. But things are coming to a head now because a) some of this shit is actually due this week and b) there is nothing else for me to do in iPhoto (so at least I accomplished something, right?).

I don’t know what the hell is going on with me right now, but I don’t like it. Do you hear me, brain? This shit has got to stop. It can’t be healthy to just try to avoid that which overwhelms me. And it sure as hell isn’t a particularly grown-up reaction.

This is why I will never, ever feel like a grownup.

Blah. This week should be super fun. But it’s my own damn fault. (The sad part is that I know I won’t learn from this.)

Enjoy your Memorial Day holiday tomorrow (if you have the kind of job that gets federal holidays off, that is). I will have to get some work done.

Until tomorrow.